My mind races uncontrollably

I don’t think I slow down at all…

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!  For those who’s actually reading this post.

It’s quick because I’m just getting myself way over my head lately and just want to learn just about everything that I can possibly learn on anything related to programming right now.

I just spent the last 2 days running through errands but also locking myself in a room to just watch the videos on XHTML & CSS, hopefully soon I’ll be able to put them into practice but it seems like there’s more things to learn before I can create a website completely on my own.

I’m just one of those guys that will never quit, never surrender. 

Leadership and learning are indispensable to each other. ~ John F. Kennedy

Roll with the punches and __________!

Dedicated to a special someone who needs that beckon of hope that there’s light at the end of the tunnel.  

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There was a series of events that occurred today that made me just want to rush to write about this topic and blog post. My sudden urge to blurb about what happened today and how everything is so connected to how I am and more…

Event #1 - Had a pleasant conversation that prompt me to write about the unfinished quote above. So, as I was slowly getting through my normal day in the office, my mind is always just racing with many thoughts.  I wanted the day to end, when is my next paycheck, what will I do with it, where will I go and all the works that go along with being an entrepreneur, constant go-getter. However at this present moment, my mind was set on SNACKS…

So I ventured into the employee kitchen, where I had gotten myself involved with an odd conversation about dreams.  No, not the one about goals, but the one that you dream of when you sleep. I guess they could be the same, but anyways as I was speaking to one of upper management members at the firm, he was expressing his discomfort about how he was living a nightmare.  Closing any business down is never an easy task, both mentally and… well mentally. However the next line rung a tone with me, he said “You gotta roll with the punches and _________”. So I had followed path and to be more positive, I geared it to reflect goals instead. The follow-up was “Everyone has dreams”, so I said, so what do you do? He replied, “No one will ever give you anything in life…you have to go for it”. 

Knowing I had to be cautious, I still uninhibitedly replied “Don’t go saying that to me… your giving me many ideas” It was true, my mind was certainly going crazy. As an entrepreneur, my mind was asking myself questions like… What will I do in several months?  How’s my future going to be?  How will the cards play out with this firm?  What’s my move?  Where’s my love? Everything was on my mind and it hasn’t stopped for over the past year or so.

I suddenly felt inspired to hear his story and a goal in the back of my mind was to attend law school, sometime in the future.  Why, he asked. I said it’s because many of the top fortune 500 CEO’s have a degree in law and I just want to have one, just to have one.  No, I didn’t want to be a lawyer, but I knew the obvious benefits to having one which was to have a good legal background to cover your ass in business.  Yes, I knew I didn’t need a degree for it, but you see, when I do things, it’s not only just a factor of what I HAVE to do, but also a sense of doing it because I know I can do it.  I always want to prove to myself that it’s something that I can do no matter how stacked the odds are against me.  At least, that’s how I see it.

Event #2 - Foolish on my end by my urges to eat snacks like earlier today that I ended up buying a bag of chips for $2.25…YES you read it right, oh I forgot to tell you the size.  Let’s just put it this way - you could of easily gotten that same bag of chips in my hood for $.25 - .50 CENTS!  It’s just utterly and ridiculously expensive to be able to breathe in the city sometimes. In addition, I had a mini caprese sandwhich for $3.50.  The size of that thing is maybe the size of my palm.  For those who don’t know what a caprese sandwhich is, it’s just tomato, basil sauce and cheese.  That’s it!  Insane! It’s good, don’t get me wrong, but completely overpriced.  I do like this place.  Tisserie offers free WIFI and I get to do some work after work.  That’s just the story of my life.

I could of simply requested that I don’t want the bag of chips, but I didn’t.  I guess maybe I was too lazy to complain or make a fuss.  Maybe, at the time, I just didn’t care about money.  But frankly, what I think was the case or lesson to be learned here is that I just roll with the punches and move on.  It was on to what I really was in this café to do…I guess write this blog post.

YOU SEE… A lot of the above got me thinking…just thinking about how I managed to roll with the punches in the past and how I ended up.  Like the time I was called racial slurs during junior high school, or like the time I was forced to box an ex-con at the local park, or how I was teased throughout high school about how skinny I was, or like the time that I was hired at a low cost… oh wait, that happened all the time.  The point is, there will always be bumps in the road, this is what life is all about.  My friends always refer to me as the person that always focused, sometimes even too focused…but I know the reason why.  It’s because I block out the noise and I stay the course.  At every scenario above, I decided to take the higher road and suck it up and move on.  I learned to adapt and continue reaching for the stars.  So to that, I’ll continue to shock the world at every chance I get.

ROLL WITH THE PUNCHES and Stay The Course! (because you already know where it is that you want to be, you just have to stay true to your heart, stay focused, and stay disciplined)

My reflection of 2011 and going forward…

As we’re turning the page to a New Year, I like to take a few steps back mentally and just reflect on the year.  I must say, I’m truly thankful for all of the best family and friends that I have in my life.

In 2011, it was more of a discovery of myself.  I had graduated from college in 2009 and for 2 years, I had been working the Full-Time, making a “steady” paycheck, yet I was still discovering who and what I truly wanted to do.  What did I find out?  I knew that I’m meant for something more, weather it was be in a better place financially, but also being a better person.  I slowly started to realize that ultimately what I want to be in life is a point person of support and role-model for others.  I’m meant for more, but in order to become that, I needed to help myself first. 

Throughout the years, I found myself confide in my closest family members for support as well as my closest friends.  It’s been without a question it’s because of them, I’m who I am and who I continue to strive to become.  So with all of the support I had been given all these years, I think it was time for me to leave the nest and really start to put the plans into action.  Practice what I preach.  

So it all started off with rallying a few friends of mine and set a goal in 2010. That goal was to save $XX,XXX.00 amount of money…for what reason, we didn’t know for sure, but we just knew that we wanted to be in a better position to pursue opportunities as it came our way.  We just knew that it was through sacrifice and budgeting that this goal would be achieved.  It was such an accomplishment for all of us to reach this hump.  We are now better for it.

Which led to 2011, where we are now trying to figure out what we are to do with our hard earned funds…we bounced ideas and some ended up going our separate ways, but we built a strong bond that no one could take away.  I’m truly thankful for just that experience of saving with a group of friends to achieve that goal. 

My mind continues to race because my ultimate goal is not complete, which is to be in a position where I can truly make at least a small difference in this world. So I decided to put a plan into action.  Start a business. Who better to start it with than one of my best friends, someone I truly admire. I knew that if I just work day to day, get a paycheck, I’ll never truly have an impact on others, but an impact on what my firm does.  It was with this understanding, my drive to be financially wealthy, my passion to be in a position to help others when called upon, my determination to hopefully, be in a position where money isn’t an issue.   So that’s when I started laying the breadcrumbs and putting the pieces together.

Yes, we can fail, like many do already, but who cares right?  The most I lose is monetary value.  Yes, this money could of been placed elsewhere, but I’m more focused about the commitment and seeing something to the end.  Creating SOMETHING out of NOTHING. I know I can do it, but I choose to do it with a team and I’m thankful to have that going right now. I hope this business creates more wealth, wealth than leads to multiple opportunities, opportunities then lead to giving back. 

We’re entrenched in this world of celebrities and famous people that everyone thinks there’s really no hard work that goes behind it. I guess, I fall prey to thinking that as well, but at some point, there was someone before them that layed the pawprints for those to have a simplier road to success.  Right now, I’m laying those pawprints and for those who grow with me.  Not everyone can walk this path that I do, I’ve seen it firsthand.  Not everyone has that same mentality I do, I know it. I learn from each and every single person that I meet and I’m grateful for every experience I’ve already been a part of.  There’s still so much to experience and ultimately find someone to share this experience with, but it’s not something that I will fret over finding.  I strive to continue “making it”.  

So as we turn this page, my 2012 plan and goal is to show the world who I truly am. As I turn 25 this year, it’s time to take the world by storm and go after what I want.  I know that I have the best family and friends behind me that even if my business/career fails, I’ll be alright.  I’ll be alright.  Life is short and it would truly upset me if I don’t give it an attempt to achieve what I want.  I’m thankful for what I do have in my life right now, which is these trials, disappointments, successes, and everything and everyone that comes with it.

So as we bring in this New Year, although I may not be on the phone with you at midnight, or even next to you at this time, do know that I’m constantly thinking about each and EVERYONE of you.  Live life to the fullest and make it happen.  

Have a Happy and Healthy New Year!  2012, BRING IT ON!